im not willing to tough it out anymore and do it by myself on my own- is anything wrong with this?
ive suffered all my life, im 30 with borderline personality disorder, because of a traumatic life of abuse, sexual abuse, bullying ive never ever made friends, never been in a relationship with the oppisite sex….never been employed….never gained qualifications………..i live alone in a one bedroom apartment on welfare….im bald, overweight and have physically aged….struggling for the right psychiatric treatment….ive never really had.
my family have been controlling and suppressed me, except my mum whos done her best to be there for me, except she smothered and over protected me….she was maladjusted as a child and had very low self esteem as a young woman…..days ago she broke the news she has ephazema.
people tell me i have alot of hard work to accomplish the dreams i want of emigration to start a new life, find a loving parter.
well i dont want to do anymore hard work..im tired of it…ive been fighting all my life.
i just want a woman in america or canada
to take sympathy on me and my plight, love me, and
invite me over to live with her in a comfortable home.
where i could marry her and turn my back on this life in
the uk.
a girl like mama cass eliot, but only slightly big.
then i wouldnt have to endlessley struggle anymore.
and why not? – you hear of stories like this of lonely
hearts meeting on the internet…then he leaves his
country to marry her…starts a new life.
well why not me? – thats what i want
i dont want to do it the hardway anymore, and be alone
like ive always been.
is there anything wrong with wanting this?
i feel like leo sayer does in this video, relating how he
wants to leave.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=poI_0HgHsH0&feature=PlayList&p=AD0CC73611FBF1A6&index=45
Not welcome anymore
In the 1880s, thousands of Chinese immigrants worked to help build Canada’s railway. But as soon as their work was over in 1885, the message was clear: Chinese people weren’t welcome in Canada anymore. The Canadian government went to great lengths to keep Chinese immigrants out of the country, including an extremely expensive head tax on all Chinese immigrants. This 1997 CBC Television clip examines those difficult early days of Chinese immigration.
